The Rite, What are you believing in?

Went to watch movie The Rite with the bf last Saturday.

Starring: Anthony Hopkins & Colin O'Donoghue *super hawtt*. 
I think its rated as horror movie. Not so scary as i thought. Fyi, im a scaddy cat ;p i dont watch horror movie. I went because I was attracted by the movie slogan, "You can only defeat it when you believe." Suprisingly, the movie was mind-blasting and life-changing! No joke.

Colin O'Donoghue

Giving some background of the movie, (Inspired by true events) American seminary student Michael Kovak (Colin O'Donoghue) is a catholic theology student who study just for the sake of taking a cert but did not heard God's calling or experienced God before. He is reluctantly enrolled in a new exorcism course at a Vatican-affiliated university in Italy that teaches priests how to distinguish between a genuine possession and mental illness. While there, Michael meets an unorthodox priest, Father Lucas (Anthony Hopkins), who teaches him about the darker side of his faith. He experienced a lot of possessed case and he gradually believe in the existence of evil spirit, and at last, proved that the power of God is greater than demon.  


So, the whole story is about a "cold" believer, who doesn't even have faith or know what he is believing finally turn back to God. Wow! How impactful is that! 


Michael, signify most of us, who tag ourselves as "Christian", that actually only know about the existence of God in our head but doesn't really have relationship with Him. We often doubt about Him and His almighty power. We say we believe in Him but admit it we rather believe in ourselves. We always do what we can first then only we ll turn to Him for final solution.


"Always believe in God because some answer you just cant find in Google." Amen.

Like Michael, even though he saw possession happened in front of him, he still refuse to believe and insist it is a symptom of mental illness . He challenged the evil spirit with his own intelligent. What is this? Proud. Many times we are just like him, isn't it? We try to find prove, we are proud. We only believe when it is proven. Sometimes we even denied the truth. But the bible says,  
Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed. (John 20:29)

Besides, the movie portraits the demon well. Very cunning, very smart, knows bible well, he knows man's heart well too. Yup, undeniable, demon knows what we have done and he likes to use your sins to accuse u! All he want is just shaken your faith. In the movie, the demon keep brings up the sins, the past of Michael everytime when he tried to do exorcism. The demon even try to persuade Michael that he is greater than God, Michael's sins are unforgiven, he is not worthy to have the power to do exorcism and God failed His promises. He makes Michael feel so so so depressed. He tries every single way just to draw us away from God and give up following God.  Wa.. scary-nya.


The demon, "So do you believe (the existence) in me??? "
Michael, "Yes I believe in you.... but at the same time I believe (the power and the promises) in God too!"


Wow.. such a powerful declaration with full of faith! With that faith, Michael cast out the demon successfully. 


If we are Michael, are we able to make the same decision that turn back to God? Or still doubting? Stumbled  by our guilt? I wanna ensure you that God is faithful, with mercy and love. There's no point fighting by ourselves. Its all in vain.

God is always there, waiting for us to turn back, just like a Father.

After the whole movie, I realized this is all planned by God. Its God's will to let Michael been through all these. To test his faith, to let him have self-realization, after that to set free all the bitterness in his heart (the death of his mom, cant get recognition from his dad, commit adultery). Most importantly, to let him know that God have never left Him and He is willing to accept him back. If God wants to call u, nothing can stop Him. Just like Jonah! U cant run away. So what for struggling? The only thing you can do is to surrender to Him. When u see no way, Jesus said He is the way. When u try to prove, Jesus said He is the truth. Better learn to live a successful life in obedience than in bitterness and hurt after much failed.

My God reigns, His love will never failed me; 
My God reigns, He's ruling over all;
In all my life, in every situation I know 
my God is GREATER, my God is over all!

I KNOW WHAT I AM BELIEVING IN, DO U?

Some revelations?

Its beginning of the year, previously i didn't really think about new year resolution or setting any goals. Cuz i can't come out with any.. i have totally no idea what im gonna do with 2011. During Chinese New Year, my uncle asked me what i wanna do after i graduate? that's the question i hate the most! So, i told him i don't know. By then only i realized how aimless i am.  I am lost. Just wasting time day after another.


I don't know what m i escaping for? Perhaps I just don't dare to face myself.. face the problems.. face the stress.. hmm...

23th of january - A day that my life started to transform

I wouldn't forget this day. When i felt i was not as good as others, i was useless, i was hopeless, i was self-giving up, God say to me, "I want to use u!". These words keep overwhelming in my heart. But the question i keep asking is, how is He goin to use me?


Im getting older n older, but things i do still very immature. I tried to control, but i failed. I regretted after i did it. I wanna grow up. So badly. I repented over n over again. Hope that God ll forgive me n help me once again. Will God help me? im struggling with this question for such a long time. It become a burden to me. 

I read a lot of quotes..  I begin to think about it. My life really need changes!! I wanna be a better person.

1st: "We judge others by their behaviors, but we judge ourselves by our intentions." How true!! Misunderstanding and conflicts always happen because of this! I really have to see things deeper, not just superficial level. We often being judgmental and gossips behind. I need Him to increase the capacity of my heart. 

2nd: "You will never have self-control until you learned how to wait." Waiting is an important lesson that I have to learn. Since young i have been impatient, if i see something i want, i must get it immediately. N this often caused me big troubles... It stumbles my life hard! God please mould me. I attended cg yesterday, Yizhen said something that strikes my heart. "God is more interested in your character than your comfort." hmm.. Sometimes, God want you to wait, is to mould your character. He will give you when He know that you can handle it. But often, i failed. I don't know what's wrong. I have faith in God's promises, but I just don't have the patience. Sometimes i feel like im Saw, didn't wait for Samuel but burn the offering himself first. Maybe what I lack is not about FAITH but OBEDIENCE.

3rd: "The measure of a mature person is on how they move on and stand up after everything goes wrong." Yes. I couldn't run away from problems any more. No matter is problems in my life or my inner part. I wanna be mature and I ll stand up and face it although im really scared. But i know God is with me. God's purpose is always greater than your problems!! Amen.

rainbow - shows the love and grace from God.

im writing down these so i can remind myself. I hope this is my last time that i made a mistake n I truly hope that my heavenly Father has mercy on me, doesn't forsake me and helped me one last time as Im turning back to Him. Pls let miracles happen again so that I will testify your amazing grace. I know that i ve received a lot of grace from Him but I never learn.. N i know i do not have any standing point and face to receive His grace anymore. All i have is guilt. But bible says,  For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God. (EPHESIANS 2:8) Meaning, i do not earn grace. Once again, I have to step out with faith, to believe that my God will help me.

I think these are my new year resolutions. To have more faith and love, to be more mature, to become a better christian. 
How great is our God!

You can only defeat it when you believe. - The Rite, movie 2011

Achieve ur dream.. boobs? Part 1 ;)

every girl's dream huh? to have a perfect body.


According to my experience, its easy to have a thin waist or flat abs (u just have to starve for few days then u can achieve it..LOL) rather than havin nice breasts. Cause breast tend to get smaller when u over diet especially after your development period (13-18yrs old), its very hard to grow back. So its super difficult to maintain breasts as they easily shrink or saggy.

Awww...


 However, trend nowadays no longer demand for big boobies. I asked a lot of my male friends, they told me big boobs are quite disgusting as the ratio with body are weird. N it doesn't look natural at all.

I think Jessica Alba has the perfect body. She looks healthy! Not to mention, her breast size is just nice. Not too big nor too small.

Hmmm.. When i was in high school, i was quite chubby but used to have C70.. After i started college, i tend to diet, cause i wasn't satisfied with my belly. But due to wrong method i used plus i ve been drinking a lot.. heehee ;p.. i found that my boobs are getting smaller n smaller..OMG!!! I shrink until small B Cup.. T.T Its too late when i realized.. :(  So, i ve been doing some research on how to enhance them.

N so, i ve tried F Cup Cookies & Kinohimitsu BustUp Drink.

U can find F Cup cookies in Sasa. I bought it at RM 168 for 2 weeks supply. It comes with chocolate or soy milk flavor. Its extremely tasty that give u the urge to munch it all in one shot! However, ur only allow to consume 2 cookies per day.

How does it work?
Each cookie contain 50mg of Pueraria Mirifica. It is a natural breast-enhancing ingredient found from plant. Thailand women has been using it for ages to enhance their breasts. 

The promoter told me that normally it works after 14days of consuming. Ur breast will become larger, fuller and firmer. But, the results differ from every person.

1,2,3,4,5 days.........14days!!!!

Ta dang!!!! *look down* 
Eee??? Nothing??? I was totally disappointed to the result. It just doesn't work on me. Nothing happen at all... I din even feel a single swell.

*sigh*

ITS NOT WORTH FOR MY $$....

I read some other reviews, it takes a very long time to get desire size.. And if u stop, ur breast will back to square 1. haih. Furthermore it never guarantee ur boobs will grow after months..  its kinda risky for me after investing so much money. i decided to stop.

But if u want, u can give it a try ;) Do share with me if there's any effect!

Cheers,
Sharon

Why Caramel Macchiato?

Phew! After 3 DAYS of wars between me n blogger, my new blog "Caramel Macchiato" is finally born! YaY~ *applause + drum roll + fireworks*

Firstly, why do i named it "Caramel Macchiato"? Because i just simply love it! Its my favourite drink. As simple as that ♥

Hmmph, apparently, this is not my first blog. I started my first blog around 16. Was at friendster.. LOL. I know i know.. frienster is lame.. who doesn't have his past.. :p That blog is a place where i express my anger n dissatisfaction. So, basically those post are mainly negative thoughts. Haha, kinda childish yea! After that, i open some blogs, posted few journals which  i don't wish people to read n i closed it down after awhile.. some i just forgot my username n passwords... =.=

Throughout all these years, i have been reading quite a lot of blogs. The way the bloggers express their thinkin n personalities r inspiring! Most importantly, it even help people sometimes! Im encouraged, i hope my blog can become a blessing too. Thus i decided to reopen a new blog randomly with enthusiasm. :D

Those blog i had previously were in simple layout n template. This time i really wanna create a quality blog that would make people feel like reading it. Therefore i start exploring the edits n customize design tabs.. i admit im a blog dummie .___. i have no idea with editing n stuffs at all. The HTML thingy is really driving me crazy!! After much reference of other's blog, i finally come out with a basic one after 3 DAYS of hair wiring. >(

Lastly, hope u like the bossa nova music i add ♥  caramel macchiato + bossa nova = perfect combination! Just make me feel so relax n soothin'.. love it. Stay tune, there's more to come :)

Life is like a cup of caramel macchiato, full bodied of espresso - bitterness that keep u awake and super sweet caramel drizzle - happiness that makes u smile. Life is always two sided, but its all good!


Cheers,
Sharon